You're a fool if you think everything is alright. It's obvious, but WE choose not to look at it for the sake of continoum, we're right where we started, Ignoring what is relevant to pursue our selfishness. Im stuck, still struck hard of betrayal, I can still feel it like it was just now, like it was that night when I tried to kill myself. No matter how brave and courageous I stir myself in, I get weakened by your words meant for other than me, those words you would normally say just to me. What have I done to be treated like that I still ask. What did I do to deserve it, I still ask. Why am I cutting myself, I still ask. I have lost and not know how to rebuild myself, kept hanging on the good part of life just to say that life goes on. I cant believe that Im actually sowing my fears, that Im literally witnessing my fears in life.
I had a premonition, I have 10 years left in my life..How do I intend on spending it?
acceptance, forgiveness and letting go...
ReplyDeleteit's a process but you'll get there... eventually.